I realize I've left so many of you hanging since my last posting.... I've had lots of emails asking me what is going on. Well, much is "going on!" Buckle your seat belts, friends, this might be a long one!
Are you buckled? Duane lost his job last Tuesday. But, my sweet friends, my God is SO at work in all this!
Duane had the "corner office" (literally) at a company here in Western NC. In fact, he knew a huge lay-off was coming so he was working serious hours to try to find any and every bit of money that the company was spending in vain in the hopes that he might have been able to save a few jobs here and there for the company. Little did he know that at the corporate level, they were also re-structuring his company to save money any where they could..... they re-structured and eliminated Duane's position. We NEVER saw this coming.
I cannot even explain with words the feeling of having six kids (+2 on the way from Africa), and hearing that you have no job.... no insurance... it's just gone. Gone.
That's the horrible part... still strapped in??? Here's the AMAZING part--

Remember my posting from a few weeks ago about the birds as they played in the snow at my bird feeder? If not, you can read that
posting by clicking here. It was while I watched those birds that the Lord reminded me of the verse in Matthew 10 that says,
"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows." If you'll remember, I even started singing that old hymn,
His Eye is on the Sparrow as I watched those birds.
For several days after that, every time I looked at our bird feeder outside, God whispered, "I love you so much more than them."
When Duane called me in shock Monday afternoon to tell me about his job loss, I just happened to be looking out the window at the feeders while he was talking to me. As he spoke, two birds flew to the feeder and God spoke SO clearly. He told me once again that His eye was on us, that He loved us dearly and He would get the glory in this situation.
Sweet friends, something happened in my husband last Monday night when we first heard about this job loss.... neither of us could sleep, so at 3am, we were having pillow talk. Serious pillow talk. Duane wept like I have never seen him weep. Not over the job loss.... not over the money loss.... he wept because he knew God had just torn down his idol. You see, my husband was a work-aholic. Just last week, and for every week since I can remember, Duane has worked long, hard hours. He is almost 40 years old and for all of his career, even before we moved here, Duane went to work before anyone here at the house was up, and he got home when the kids were in the their pajamas. I had just gotten used to it. I hated it, but I learned long ago that complaining just made it worse. I had learned to live with the fact that my husband's job was very important to him... after being married to him for 17+ years, I just learned to live with getting his left-overs.... the kids have never known any other way.
But that all changed Monday night. As Duane wept, I saw his idol come crashing down. Duane KNOWS now that God took his job away because it had become his god. And friends, when our God says, "
I will have no other gods before me" He means it!! God loves my husband SO much and wants his love in return SO much, that He got Duane to his knees and tore down his idol to get to his heart. GLORY! I will forever praise Him for what he has done in my family in the past several days!!! Through Duane's tears, he has begged for my forgiveness.... he has gotten back in God's Word.... has made a TOTAL change.... and he means it. His entire countenance has changed. Oh, how it makes me love him even more.
Duane is a deacon... a Sunday School teacher.... a church lay-leader..... a caring father.... a loving husband.....an orphan advocate.... but he had an idol that came before all of this. Slowly, ever so slowly, his idol had taken over every part of his life. Over years and years of working so long and so hard in order to "provide" for us, he had carved an idol with every day that went by when he put his job above everything else. And it came crashing down Monday night. And it hit the ground with a HUGE noise! Friend, I'm sure all of Hell shook when it fell! GLORY!
We all went to the park on Tuesday as a family. I cried as I watched my husband play baseball with our children for the first time in over three years. Our newest adopted son, Daniel, is five years old. We have had him now from Liberia for almost 3 years. Before Tuesday at the park, he had never held a baseball bat before. I am weeping as I type this because I have my husband back. I am devastated about the job loss, but it is worth it all! God is not concerned about our happiness nor our comfort levels... He is concerned about our hearts. So we are all praising Him in the midst of this job loss!
Last Friday, Duane was asked to give this "fresh testimony" to a group of church leaders who were attending a large prayer conference at our church. Henry Blackaby's son was even among the leaders! I beamed as my husband, in perfect humility, gave God the glory through this situation and poured his heart out before those leaders. God is honoring his humility! God's Word says, a contrite spirit He will not deny. I am so proud of my husband! God looks
SO good in Duane!!!
We are claiming so many promises from God's Word like never before! The two main scriptures we are clinging to are Isaiah 54:17, "No weapon formed against you shall prosper," and Romans 8:28, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have have been called according to His purpose."
I stand amazed. Already, God is getting the glory from this! We may be eating peanut butter for dinner for the next few months until God provides another job, but my friends, we don't care! It's worth it! God's hand is all over this!! Praise Him!
OK, you can unbuckle your seat-belt now..... sorry this was SO long, but I love to tell you all what God is doing in my life, and right now, He is AMAZING me with every moment that goes by!